Life Will Never Be Perfect

2006-04-08T19:00:00.000-07:00

Happy 6th month to me.
:(

2006-04-07T21:37:00.000-07:00

I am feeling kind of sad today. As in really sad. I'm not sure why though.

* Had breakfast at Mcdo Global with Ej and Andrea kanina. We dropped by at Forbes muna to pray. Haha. Wala lang. After eating breakfast we headed to Rockwell. Grabehan! Matagal na pala ko talaga hindi nakakapunta dun. Sad. Kaya sa Wednesday next week dun kami manunuod ng movie nila Andrea. Wehehe. Tas nagvideoke kame sa Playstation. Ang sagwa ng duet namen ni Ej pero grabe naka 100 pa kame! Kalokohan. :) And c Andrea ang ganda ng mga songs. Chinese. D kami makarelate.

* 12.30 I headed back to AKIC. Alone. Cos we have a presentation pa for Foodsys as our Final exam eh. So there. We ate at Mapecon muna kahit na late na kame. Me, Mark and Gan plus c Reno. Ayos lang. Sarap ng Chicken Delight. :) Ang sagwa ng report naman. Walang pichures. Kaasar eh. Pero wag ka 89 pa kame kahit 4 slides lang.

* Ang kulit ni Cocoy, Pagudpod na lang daw instead na Batangas. Eh planado na nga yun. Ibang lakad na lang un db? Saya. Beach na beach na ko.

* Kanina ung mga pinagusapan namen nila Ej heart-warming. Hayyy. Sarap magkafriends ng ganon noh. Ung lahat na-aappreciate. Chka open sa lahat ng ideas. Laging may sermon sken na feel good. Basta. Ok.

2006-04-03T18:15:00.000-07:00

Hell Week! Literally HELL.

Our last meeting in Fronop1 earlier was fun. Uber fun. Lotsa kwentos and learnings and all that stuff. Sir Acuna really is a very good professor to have. You'll learn lots of new things from him. It's good. Really really nice. :) We'll surely miss him. Awwww.

What else? Mom made kwento kanina. As in 5 minutes ago. Arrrggggghh. Grabehan. Sha talks to my mom as if hindi sya ung nanay nung tinutukoy nya na girl (which happens to be me). Wala lang.
So sad. And annoying. And frustrating. Grrrrrr. Hate it. Sorry.

EJ texted me earlier regarding our batangas trip. It might be moved on the 21st of April instead of our planned 17th. But we're still staying for 3days and 2nights. We're just not yet sure if it's going to be in Atelie's place, Galera or La Luz or somewhere. We're still going to plan. We need to UNWIND. RELAX. and FORGET OUR FRUSTRATIONS for a while.

I still need to do my Bedmaking project. I NEED to.

2006-04-02T15:15:00.000-07:00

Ooooh. Isn't my new layout cute or what?

Spread your wings and prepare to fly. Butterfly! :)

I woke up so very early in the morning (for a weekend, that is). I have to go to Edsa Shang pa kasi to take a picture of Ms. Vangie. She's the one we interviewed for our Prohou1 project. Luckily, she remembered me pa so I got access to go straight to the Housekeeping Department.
I love hotels. Especially Edsa Shang. :) I wanna work there! Haha. Hopefully.

After Edsa Shang we went to Shang to print the pics and then nag-mass kami ni Taraj after that we went home na. O db. I'm bankrupt kasi eh. To think na it's already summer. Grrrrr!
Money!!! Where are you? Haha. I nid to work part-time for Starbucks na. My brother will be working for Teriyaki Boy this summer eh. Sayang nga, I wanna join him sana kaya lang til 17yrs old lang eh. Hehe. Sori na lang ako.

I'll make kwento na lang later pag may ngyre pa.

:)

2006-04-02T00:30:00.000-08:00

I am Back! For good. Ok na ung landlyn namen eh.
Haha.

Anyways. Sobrang I've got lots of kwentos to tell pero it would take me long to type it kaya summary na lang.

This coming Monday will be Finals/Hell week for me. Goodluck sken kaya pray for me. Sobrang delikado talaga ko sa Professional Housekeeping (lab) ko. I need 74%.
I'm praying hard for this. Promise next term magpapakabuti nako talaga. Promise!!!!

Uhm. Eun. My brother graduated nga pala yesterday. So we were at Beda at around 2:30 pm and may mass, eh parents lang un may seats so pumunta kame ng cousin ko sa Mcdo sa Laco and I saw my nice while walking sa may CEU. Haha. Nakaktuwa. So after namen mgMcdo bumalik kame sa Beda around 4pm tas ngstay kame dun sa labas ng church. Then we saw Ruffa Gutierrez (batchmate ng brother ko un brother nya) and andmeng ngpapichure. Nagjojoke nga ko na papichure dn kaya ako. Haha.
Grabe ung speaker nila. 1 hour ung speech! Nkakaasar! Umalis ako 7pm cos susunduin ko ung girl ng kapatid ko sa proj4. O db? Ambaet kong ate. Sobrang traffic dumating ako dun sa proj4 8pm. Tas naghintay ako ng 30 mins dun kay Dada. Then we went straight to Eastwood. Nakakatawa nga eh. Kc when we arrived there hindi pa tapos graduation ng kapatid ko so hihintayin pa namen cla. Pumunta kmeng Chocolate ni Dada and nakita ko un Havaianas na antagal ko ng hinhunting tas pinareserve ko agad (la kc ko money eh). Haha. After nun mga 9:30pm nung dumating sila so nasa Somethin' Fishy na kme nun and umorder nako cos grabe na ung gutom ko. After kumaen pinabili ko agad ung Hav. :) Then we went home na around 12mn.

Hmmm. 3 days kame d ngpaparamdaman ni Pedro pero nagtxt sha ngyon. Long story din un. Basta compromise lang ang kelangan and onting understanding.

Kanina, ka-ym ko c Ricca. Actually dapat matutulog na nga ko eh. PEro blog muna ko sandali.

Aga pa ko ggcng tom cos punta ko Edsa Shang and pipichuran ko ung ininterview namen for Prohou1. Hmm. Eun. Tom nlang ulit. Byers :)

2006-03-14T07:25:00.000-08:00

Babyboy's not here. He's on his tour in Banaue. Grrrr. Soooo far away. Okay. Not that far. But it still IS far. I am so sad and so worried. Maybe I am just being paranoid but hey, you can't blame me. There is no need for me to mention why. Friends......I hope you get me.

Anyways, I am here in CompLab1. I am super early for my next class. It's just 7.15am and my class won't start until 8am. Darn Foodsys. We actually have a reporting and demonstration on Table Set-up and I have no idea what to say and do. So much for being a "good student". I just pray that I won't have any R's on my course cards when I get it. Really. I am so pressured to just have an R in any subject. Please.

Online Enrollment will be on Wednesday. For id 104 that is. But I forgot if I was able to enlist Cathwor and SIS would not open. I can't log-in and check my subjects. Grrrrr. How am I supposed to make a schedule if I am not sure of my sujects????

Btw, I have a new ym id and new email address. Wala lang.

Ok, I have got to go. I have to do my reaction paper pa for Prohou2 eh.

Byers.

2006-02-22T16:25:00.000-08:00

Oooohhh..For everybody's info, I AM STILL ALIVE!!
I just haven't got the time to update my blog cos first, our phone line at home's cut and second, school's kinda hectic already. I am actually still in AKIC waiting for my babyboy to get dismissed.

Our midterm's over and it's already finals but I feel I am being smart this term that I will get low grades from 2-3 subjects. (*ok, i was being sarcastic when i said i was being smart this term!) It's not really hard to pass this term and I guess that's the problem. I am taking things easy which is so not good. I am transforming from being a "do-your-best girl" into a "nah-that's-easy-so-you-don't-have-to-worry girl". That bad. Grrrrrr. Oh, please pray for me.

Lovelife's been pretty ok compared to how it was before. We still have petty arguements and stuff but we try to keep our cool and just be calm about handling things. Ok, I love him that much.

My friends? Well, they are always here for me. Zanotot and Apol. I lurrrve them both. I miss spending time with you. :(

Hmmm..What else is new? I feel I have to make this entry a bit long cos I've missed blogging for almost a month.

Oh yeah, btw babyboy's goin to have his tour this March 8-10. Yes. March 8. Goodluck to me. Our 5th month and for like the 2nd month (i think) we are not going to spend time together and worst, we are not going to see each other! :( Sadness!

Anyway, I am making ipon na. I have so many things that I want to buy. Unless meron jan mga tao na gusto akong regaluhan kahit isa sa mga nasa wish list ko. Haha. :) Para naman mabawasan ung pinagiipunan ko db. Thank you in advance naren. Promise. Magiipon talaga ko mabuti. I am even planning to apply sa Starbucks to be a part-time barista eh. Kaming dalawa ni Zano. Well, nakikisama naren babyboy ko eh. So ok na un. Hmmm.

Summer's coming up na! I am excited! Pero I am not allowed to go to the beach. :( Sadness. I have got nothing to do for this summer. Well. Bahala na. Sana may magyaya.

What else? Ipagdasal niyo naren ung telepono namen. Naiirita na kc ako eh. Haha.

Ok, next time ulit. :)

2006-02-02T10:30:00.000-08:00

In my personal vocabulary or rather dictionary..whatever! Pain is currently synonymous with love. I think!

I totally have no other basis than what I am experiencing right now.

This is so sad.

2006-01-29T16:05:00.000-08:00

Another week has passed. Wala lang.
I've been spending lotsa time with my anak, Katrina Grace Lozano.
We've been meeting up more than the usual. Total bonding moments with matching *sin* kay Lord because of this certain girl na lagi namin nkikita. Sorry. But as what my anak says: "We're not mean. Nagsasabi lang ng totoo." Yeahyeah.
Oh well. My Fronop2 drill went good. Kahit na pina-take two ako nung prof. E mukhang nagenjoy saken eh. Tomorrow mukhang meron nanamang drill. Reservations naman. Goodluck ulit saken.

Anyway, mejo enjoy tong week na toh. Not to mention na nagworld war 3 kame ni peedow nung wednesday-thursday. Pero nagbati kame thursday afternoon. Niaway nya kasi ako eh. So eun.

Nung friday total bonding moments kami ng family ko. Peedow and my anak. O db? Haha. Punta kami St. Paul fair then nageastwood kami. OJ's. Wahehe. Nagbonding moments ung mag-ama ko. Mejo nabadtrip din ako nun pero ok lang. Bumawi naman. Ay btw, he gave a white rose. Long stemmed pa. Un nga lang, tinubos nya anak ko kaya sya ngkaron nun. Pero ok lng. Sweet naman eh. : )

Wish ko talaga makabit na ulit ung fone sa haus. Nahihirapan na buhay ko eh. Hindi ako makapagblog regularly kaya mejo sabaw ako ngyon magkwento. Wahaha.

Wish me luck nlang tomorrow.

L be back. : )

2006-01-22T16:20:00.000-08:00

After ten years ulit bago ako nkapagupdate. Sori. I've been busy kc these past few days eh kaya no time and besides....wala paren kaming fone. Haha. Sori zano. Poor na eh. Wahahah.

Anyway, I'm happy today! Cos Pacquiao won!!!! Wahahaha. Sori lang. Nkakaoverwhelm kc eh.

So eun, we ate lunch at Gsquared. Sa may home depot. With my family. Almost complete. Niaasar pako ng ate ko. Cos tinanong ko kuya ko kung kelan sila mgppupuerto and sabi nga sa baksayon daw so sabi ko sasama na talaga ko and sabi ng ate ko "as if naman maiiwan mo boyfriend mo..haha.." O db? Hataw.

I'm so kinakabahan na for tomorrow sa Fronop2 ko. May drill kc kami eh. Grrrrr. Sana wag ako mamental block.

Ngayon mejo naaasar ako. Wala lang. Puro na lang bola. Bola.

Hay grabe.

2006-01-14T15:00:00.000-08:00

Yey! I am back. Soooo good. I've lots of kwentos right now.
Today's Petwoda. I kinda hate the prof. Not the subject.
Anyway....

Ok, I'll share some highlights of the week.

*sunday 010806*

Our third month! Can you believe it? I mean, time's fast. Right? I thought he forgot about it so I was so not in the mood and I was so masungit half of the day. My mom and I went to Shang with my Ninang and her daughter. So mejo ok nako. Pero nababadtrip pren ako cos he was acting normal. Normal na parang wala lang. So I also pretended as if the day is normal. Nothing special.
Then when he got home he texted me to go out pero wala nga ako sa mood so I asked him why and said I am not in the mood, later na lang pero he insisted and when I reached the gate he was all smiles and he turned his back on me, lifted his shirt and a bar of Toblerone was in his behind pocket sa pants and then nung pagharap nya may card. Kaasar. Haha. Pero, ok fine. I was touched. There.

*monday 010906*

Not a good way to start the week. We, by that I mean Pedro and I, had an argument. Oooh. So bad. What else to share?

*tuesday 011006*

Apol and I were supposed to go out and watch Narnia at Shang pero I cancelled it. I forgot why. Hmmm.

*wednesday 011106*

Badtrip day. I had my period unexpectedly. As in. I was supposed to attend my YHE G.A pero I had my period unexpectedly. Wala pa naman akong napkin or even liner lang. Nakakahiya pa. I was with Jerome and Roxanne during that time. My stomach ached laughing cos of Jerome.

*thursday 011206*

Mommy's birthday!! : )

Peedow and I went straight to Shang after class. Had lunch with my mom and my cousin then nagikot-ikot then went straight to F salon still with my Pedro and Mom and cousin. Then at around 5.30 pm Pedro's mom, tito rene, my aunt and my brother went to Dampa in Libis for dinner. Halos buong ankan namen. Answeet. Kasama si Pedro with my family having dinner. Birthday celebration ng Mom ko, remember? : ) Mejo tinanong sya ng uncle ko then un mga ate ko rin. Haha. Happy tong day na toh.

*friday 011306*

Friday the 13th's bad luck reputation holds true. I had the worst day of this year started. Plain bad luck. Capturing moments ung dating eh. I hate her! Omigod! Did I just said that!? Omigod! Omigod! Bahala na c batman. I'm not gonna delete that. I hate backstabbers. If you don't like me wag ka ng magsalita. Wahaha! Zano!!!! I hate her! I am sooooo irritated. Insecure? Of course not!!!!!!!!!! Why should I?! Derrrrrr!

2006-01-03T17:56:00.000-08:00

Dull color huh? I'm feeling kinda down.
I kinda noticed that most of my entries are usually about my sadness, anger and mood swings and how badly I want to go out and unwind.
I'm not sure if my life is basically about being down and being taken for granted but I am certain that it is indeed 70% part of it.
I think it is that bad.

Another thing is that I am having second thoughts whether it is me who really starts the fight because of my being emtional,rational and irrational or my mood,plainly. I don't think I am "mababaw" as what he claims me to be. That I am sure of. I maybe unreasonable and unarguable at times but I am definitely not "mababaw".
Maybe if you put yourself in my position then I guess you would have at least an idea of what I am feeling.

I no longer want to mentin names here. (had I?)
I just want this to be read.
I just want others to really absorb my emotions and not just laugh at it.

Yeah others do. They do laugh about and joke about things which for me are serious. Tamaan sana kayo.

It's aready 2006. New Year. New Start. I am thinking postive that I would be able to accomplish my resolutions. I have realistic ones in case you are doubting if I wil be able to do all of it.

There are times I feel empty inside. I really have no idea why.
I feel empty and sad and alone. Yes. Alone.
See? I told my blog serves as my shock absorber.

Poor bloggie.

2005-12-29T17:10:00.000-08:00

Life is weird. Really.

I am actually feeling sad today. Sad. Lonely. Alone. Bothered. Worried. Neglected.

Yesterday was super gulo. The other day was super gulo din.

Zano and I went at G4 and watched kacornihan na Shake Ratlle and Roll. Ampanget! Sayang money. After that, we went home muna. Soundtrip lng kme sa room ko. Then around 6.30pm we went at Aruba in Metrowalk.

Tas eun. I wanna go out ulit. Todo unwind ito!

Bahala na.

Basta alam ko, wala akong gnwang mali. Bahala sya kung yun gusto nyang icpin. Kung anong gusto nyang mgyre.
Bahala na.

2005-12-27T11:25:00.000-08:00

Orange. Is the new black. Este Pink pala un. :)

Derr. Anyways, Christmas is walang kwenta. As in wala akong gift na na-open. I mean, its ok cos kumaen nman kame and stuff pero ung usual gift opening ko noh! Badtrip! Malungkot. Masaklap pa dun eh Christmas card lang ung na-receive ko from my parents. Grarrr.
Well, c Pedro naman eh may regalo saken. GARFIELD! BLEEEH! haha. Ang cutie.

Im in G4 ngayon with Zano. Date kami. Cos walang ibang gustong mkipag-date sken. Kahit ung naturingang boyfriend ko eh ayaw akong samahan. O db? Sweetness? Nakaktouch. Tapos ngayon mbabadtrip kc aalis ako, derrrr eh niyayaya ko nga eh ayaw nman nya! Sabi ko nga last na-aya ko na toh sknya. No effect pren. Pero seryoso last na toh. D ko na sya iiinvite next tym!!!! PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bwiset!!!!!!!!! Tapos feeling ko ngyon ssbihin nnman nya eh npkademanding ko. Bakit ba? Ang hirap ko ba intindihin!?? HA!??
Mukha ba tong hndi kampante? Db?? Lagi nlang taken for granted. Di ako masamahan pag ngyayaya ako. O db, ako pa ngyaya sknya tpos ako ung tintanggihan! Tapos ako pa papalabasin nya na hndi marunong umintindi,makiramdam and all. Garrrrrrrrrr! Cno kaya? Parang ako ung lalaki eh noh. Rejected lagi ampota! Goodluck sken.

Pray for me.

2005-12-12T09:25:00.000-08:00

Still in Red mode, huh?

I realized that the world is being invaded by HYPOCRITES. 80% of the world's population are those people. Those kind of people. Is it the whole world's population or the Philippines'? Cguro sa Manila lang. Haha. Anlabo.

I read my previous posts. Wala lang. I'm in CL2 kasi eh. I'm doing my homework sa Philien and Joseriz. So eun, back to my previous posts..ansarap basahin. Haha wala lang. Nakakatuwa. Ilang tao na kaya ang nag-misinterpret ng mga cnulat ko? Ilan na kaya cla? To think na napakababaw lng naman ng mga use of words ko. Hmmm. Bakit kaya? Cnasadya ba? Ah basta. Cge, mag-assume lang kayo jan. Kaya nyo yan.ü

Mashado nkong maraming problema sa buhay para isali ko pa kayo. Mentally,emotionally,psychologically exhausted nko. Mashado nkong naghahabol sa oras. Pressured na pressured nko sa school. Ang daming requirements na ngayon lang biglan nagsulputan:

Prinmgt- presentation
Philien- play/finals/reaction papers/character review
Joseriz- movie critique
Worlite- christmas carole
Perdevt- finals

then worried pko sa grade ko sa Nutrlec and Nutrlab and idagdag mo pa ung Bmat2x.

Tas darn this day! Wala na ung extrang .5 ko sa worlite so ewan ko lang kung maka-4 pko. Midterm grade ko is 3.5 eh. 96 lang so kelangan ko 96 ulit garrrrr. Sana makaabot ung grade ko. I wish!

Uhm, pagod nko. I'm tired as in really tired. Gsto ko na magfinals para matapos na lahat. Feeling ko nga, irerepeat ko ung bmath eh. Sana lang hindi pero feeling ko. Kasi naman ang hirap nung ammortization sched. Ngayon ko nga lang ngets ung (OB)k eh. Kung kelan pahuli na ang lahat. At npkarami pang formulas kaya natataranta ung brain ko. Basta sana pass lahat.

Meron pkong 2 back subjects at isang to-be.
Petwoda and Cathwor tpos for next term ung Tratour.

Hayyyyyy. I guess this is not my year.

2005-12-08T15:30:00.000-08:00

Wuhooo. After 10gazillion years, update!

It's our 2nd month today. And guess what? Di kami mgkasama. Haha. Wala lng.
Ok lng.

Anyway, hndi ako insecure sayo noh! Kung cno ka man hndi ako insecure sayo. Feeling nyo lng un! Bwahahaha!!!!!!

2005-11-21T21:05:00.000-08:00

I found this story in my friendster bulletin. Ang sweet eh kaya I decided to post it here. Wala lang. I am all mushy again. Frustration eh. Haha. : )

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This is a story between a girl and a boy on their 7th year anniversary:

-girl calls up boy: hey happy anniversary
again.
-boy: hi happy anniservary!... hey
remember you wanted to tell me something after school? sorry i left so early i had to go to work. so what did you want to tell me?
-girl: i wanted to say i love you
-boy: yeah i know everyone does!
-girl: really?
-boy: yeah... everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.
-girl: oh... but am i only your friend?
-boy: no... youre my girlfriend... why?
-girl: so when i say i love you i really do mean it.
-boy:yeah i know you do mean it... its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me
anymore cuz i know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.
-girl: ......
-boy: so wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th anniv?
-girl: yeah... where?
-boy: i dont know... maybe movie then dinner?
-girl: ok
-boy: ill pick you put after i get off and get ready ok?
-girl: ok. what time do you get off?
-boy: in 2 hours and then i gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 mintues...
-girl: aye... i thought you didnt have work today...
-boy: one of my co-workers called in sick
-girl: oh okay! so ill see you around 7:30 then?
-boy: yeah! and babe?
-girl: yeah?
-boy: i love you
-girl: i love you too!
-boy: ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.
-girl: ok bye
-boy: bye

2 hours later... the boy drives to his girlfriend's house

boy walks up to the door and rings bell

-girl: hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)
-boy: wassup... you ready?
-girl: um... wait... let me got my bag and we could go ok?
-boy: ok

they both watched a movie and ate dinner.... once they were done eating they head back to
the car but before she got into the car...

-boy: wait! can i blind fold you?
-girl: why??!
-boy: its a suprise
-girl: what kind of suprise?
-boy: a big one
-girl: okay but only if you promise me that you will hold my hand while we're driving.
-boy: i promise.
-girl: ok blind fold me...

so they drove off........... and then they stopped.

-boy: ok we're here!
-girl: where?
-boy: wait let me walk you to the place!
-girl: what place?
-boy: somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips)
-girl: babe!...

the boy walks her to the place

-boy: ok.... let me the blind fold off you
-girl: where are we?

he takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at that same
spot... thats where he first asked her to be his girlfriend...

-girl: omg.... (tears come down)
-boy: why are you crying?
-girl: this is where you first asked me out...
-boy: what are you doing the rest of your life? (he asked on his knees and after he says
that...behind him... in the air it says "will you marry me?" in fireworks)
-girl: (tears come down faster)
-boy: i wasnt at work when you called me... i was planning this whole thing!
-girl: get up!
-boy: yeah?
-girl: (kisses him)
-boy: is that a yes or a no?
-girl: yes.

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Ang sweet noh?

Anyway, I lost my good mood. Just now. Wala lang. Under time pressure eh.
Ay ewan. Nawala lang ako sa mood bigla. As in bigla.

San ba may katulad nung nasa taas? Wala lang. Wag niyo na lang pancnin mga sinasabi ko. Buti na lang shock absorber ko tong blog ko. Mejo magaan ang buhay.

Wala na talaga ako sa mood.
Ciao.

2005-11-18T19:00:00.000-08:00

RED? For anger or for love?

Yeah, whatever. Life has been steady for me. Literally.

I feel sick. :(

I am kinda upset. I don't really know why but I am.

We watched Harry Potter 4 earlier. It was ok but not a-ok. At least, not the way I expected it to. Parang nabitin ako eh.
I was so takaw kanina. We ate lunch at Binalot and then right after nag-starbucks pko. Yum. Haha.

Argh. I am not good. Or perhaps I am. I am so paranoid. I admit. Ah basta, kahit anong sabihin niyo masyado akong selosa. May rason naman ako eh. Gets? I mean, hindi naman ako magseselos kung wala kang binibigay at pinapakitang rason diba? Hindi pako ganon ka-paranoid noh.

Tinatamad nako. Bad.

2005-11-11T18:53:00.000-08:00

I am sooooo not well. I am not.

I've been totally pissed and totally disappointed and totally freaked out. Maybe I am just being unreasonable and I instantly jumped into a conclusion. Pero I hoep you get my point.

Kunyari ikaw ung boyfriend, alam mo naman na halos mamatay na sa selos ung girlfriend mo sa isang certain friend mo, deadma ka lang ba? At hanggang sabi ka nalang ba ng "wala un"? Hindi ka ba kikilos? Hindi mo man lang ba ittry na ipa-FEEL sa girlfriend mo na tlgang wala? Sabihin mo ng kababawan lang db pero isatisfy mo nalang ung girlfriend mo. Para tapos na usapan. Un lang naman hinihiling nya eh. Hindi ba un madali? O cge, kaibigan mo. Blockmate mo. Pero alam mo naman cguro kung anong dapat mong gawin db? Hindi mo ba kayang "isacrifice" un? Madali lang naman eh. Kapag tinanong ka ng girlfriend mo at pinapili ka na nya, sabihin mo ung totoo. Para tapos na ang problema nyong dalawa. Kung hindi mo kayang iwasan edi un. Tapos ang usapan.
Hindi naman cguro kelangan pang isa-isahin sayo ng girlfriend mo kung ano ang dapat mong gawin e db?

Kaya mo na yan.

Alam mo na sa sarili mo kung anong pwede at hindi. KUNG PANO UNG MARARAMDAMAN NG GIRLFRIEND MO. Kausapin mo kung kailangan. Ung hindi maiiwasan talaga. Hindi ung may choice kang kausapin sya o hindi pero kinausap mo paren. Ah basta un.

Sa totoo lang, ayoko ng ganitong feeling eh. Ayoko talaga.

Yung inexample ko, ako un. Problema ko un. Haha. Bwiset eh noh?

2005-11-09T20:00:00.000-08:00

Bakit ba hindi nawawalan ng mga taong plastic? Cnungaling? Feeling? Istorbo? Sagabal? Walang magawa sa buhay?

Ewan ko. Nagmumuni muni ako and naisip ko lang un. Lagi na lang akong merong isang babaeng kelangan "pagselosan". Bakit naman sya pa? Wala lang. Naisip ko lang. Hay nako.

Ayoko talaga ng ganitong feeling. Nakakaasar lang.

2005-11-09T19:43:00.000-08:00

Tiring.

This day is just plain dragging and tiring. Nothing much happened.

I had my nails polished with pink (FIX). It's nice though. I was with Maristel and the rest of the friendly friends of mine at G4 kaninang break. I really enjoy (?) telling them my problems or just whatever it is that's bothering me. They may be pangaasar at times pero when I'm serious they give me naman reasonable advices and all that stuff. :)

Weird talaga akong babae. I don't even know if this is normal. Inaway ko nanaman ata Peedow ko. Well, hindi naman away as in away pero naabnormal nanaman ako. Nakakaasar. Minsan nga pag tinotopak ako tumatahimik na lang ako. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ganito ako. Hindi toh insecurity pero mukha ngang insecurity toh. Pero hindi eh! Sige, literal meaning ng insecure na lang. "Not Secure" yan. I don't feel super secure yet. Un lang. It's not that wala talaga akong trust pero I don't feel secure yet. Un ata un. I mean, hindi pa ganon ka-secure kaya cguro mejo malakas pa topak ko. Ayaw ko namang maging mashadong sure sa sarili ko db. Mahirap na. Pero cguro, magiging secure na feeling ko habang tumatagal and he's proving himself to me. Ganon lang un. Kaya sory kung mejo malakas topak ko. Ganito tlga ko eh. Flip.

I love my Peedow kaya umaatake nanaman ako. Argh. I am trying to control naman na eh pero ganito cguro talaga ako. Flip mashado. Ewan ko. Takot ako. Alam ko takot ako. Grarrrr. Kasi kung hindi ako attached hindi ako ganito eh. So attached na attached na attached na mega attached nako kaya takot ako. Kaya I want to feel secure. Nakakainis pa hindi ako mashadong vocal. Sulat lng ako ng sulat. Passion eh. Minsan mas nae-express ko sarili ko through writing. Hindi pala minsan. Most of the time. Pero minsan mas gusto ko both. Haha. Never na vocal lang.

Kaya pag pasenshahan nko. Weird talaga ako.

2005-11-06T16:15:00.000-08:00

Oooooh. My problem is over! Really. :) Thank God!

Today is real hassle for me. I have to finish all the requirements for this week for me not to cram anymore.

+ 2 reaction papers for Habits 3 and 4 for Perdevt (tues)
+ answer the workbook handouts of Habits 4 til 7 still for Perdevt (tues)
+ 1 reaction paper for Nutrilec (friday)
+ 2 journals for Worlite (tom)

Haven't started one though. I re-arranged my bookshelf, first. I'm about to do them all one by one after I'm done blogging. I am really focused on finishing them all...TODAY. Peedow will be attending his friend's debut later at Edsa Shang so I have nothing else to do but do my homeworks.

I feel bored and sleepy. My allergy is killing me again. I hate dust and pollution, they are responsible for my allergy. Grarrrr! Sneeze nanaman ako ng sneeze. Nilinis ko kc ung bookshelf eh. Badtrip. Kung ano2 nanaman kc pumasok sa isip ko kaya napalinis ako bgla. I hate this.

Sana umuwi agad mamya c Peedow. May pasok na tom eh. Baka hindi sya magising agad tom pag nagpuyat sya mamya. Mamimiss ko Peedow ko. Lagi na lang akong iniiwan. :(

Excited na ko sa debut ni Abalos. Haha. Wala lang. Para lang matapos na. Mgsspeech ekek pa kasi ako eh. Ilagay ba ako sa 18 gifts? Badtrip noh? Pero sige na nga, love ko naman un eh.

Zano, sana machempuhan na kita.

Byers. Ima do my homeworks na muna. :)

2005-11-04T17:00:00.000-08:00

I fin'lly have a dressto wear for Abs' debut on Nov.12. Weeeeh. :) It's plain pero it's cute naman eh. I bought it with my dad cos umalis kami kanina. I also have a gift na for Abs. It's so cute. Derrr. Dapat kaya ipapabili ko un for myself noh pero naicp ko...teka, hindi pala ako ung nagicp..sbe ng dad ko maganda daw (feeling nya tiningnan ko un as a gift) so eun, binili na pinagift wrap pa. Oh well.

Look at my friendster account pala. Wala lang. Tignan nyo lang. :)

Uhm, problemado paren ako. Yknow. About dun sa.....
I don't know what to do. Ayoko na icpn un pero I can't help it eh. Nababagabag na talaga ko. :(
I pray that this is just false alarm. *prays real hard*

Goodness. Ang bilis ng time or rather ng days. Friday na agad! May pasok nanaman ako sa Monday. Hindi pa ko nkakagawa nung sa Perdevt and Worlite. CONGRATS SAKEN. Haha.

I miss my friends.
Baby zano: miss you.
Apol: Sis! Miss na kita! Hindi ka na ngpaparamdam sken. :(
Jesa: Swam, pray *with* me. And say hi to leo for me nren pla. hehe. :)
Kate: Kung ngbabasa ka man, magparamdam ka nman noh!! Kaya nga may tagboard eh. :(
AC: Sugar......... :)

2005-11-01T18:50:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween! :)

I'm bored here at home. My peedow's "with" her lola eh. So hindi nya ko bnantayan ngyong day.

Anyway, something is bothering me. :(

Problema toh chong!

Ayoko ng isipin. Nagpapanic lang ako. Gusto ko ng umalis. Gusto ko ng mag November 12. Gusto ko ng Wengweng. Friends, kelangan nating mag-usap. Waaaaaahhh! Gusto ko mag OJ's, mag Red Box, mag Temple, mag Aruba! Kahit san, pucha!

2005-10-31T23:20:00.000-08:00

Friendster is sooooooo stupid! I hate it.

Ayaw magwork ng password ko sa second account and darn MOE wala na ata! Badtrip. Kagabi pa un eh. I don't know why. E naka-automatic save naman un password here sa PC ko pero ayaw talaga kaya nagulat ako. Sheeesh! What's wrong!? Ewan ko, naiirita ako.

Anyway, masaya naman ako today. Pati yesterday, pero mas masaya ngayon. Haha. Pareho lang! Kasama ko Peedow ko eh. Almost whole day. Bantayan ba ako? Haha. Ok na pala kami. Sumama lang talaga loob ko. Sinabi ko nga na balak ko na syang splitan nun eh. Pano ba naman kc noh....Bdtrip talaga. Pero at least ok na ngayon. Ulitin lang nya un.................hmmmmm.
Nakakatuwa nga eh. Nagsorry using a t-shirt. Kayo na bahala ano isipin niyo. Ang kulit nung gnwa nya muntik nkong tumawa kundi ko lang naalala na galit pala ko. :) LOLX.

Basta ang sweet nya today. Un lang un. Ang kulit nmen. Basta masaya. No need for words.

Oh btw, did I already mention na I WANT MY OLD HAIR BACK!? Shet! I missd my hair. My long, straight hair. I hate my curls. Hindi kc eto ung gsto ko eh. I wanted to have my hair curled, yes. Pero un ends lang not my entire hair length noh! BS!

Binabalak kong iparebond toh next year. Ang tagal pa. Baka kc masira naman hair ko sa napakaraming chemicals.

Garrrr. I'll sleep na. Natulog na love of my life ko eh. Meme narin ako. :)

2005-10-29T17:05:00.000-07:00

Kakarerin ko toh ngayon.

I'm home na. Do you think this week was and still is a total jinx for me?

It all started yesterday then ngayon. Pero kahit na 2 days pa lang, malupitan naman ung mga nangyare...db? Well, you know na ung nangyare kahapon.

Ngayon naman, practical exam namen sa NUTRLAB. Kundi ka ba naman tlga mamalasin mali ung computation namen sa total kcal ng food na cnerve namen. Argh! At ang napala nameng grade e isang malupitang 77%. Mataas naman lahat eh, nahila lang kame nung computation. 17/20 kami sa uniform (hindi kc nkabutton ung unform and wlang chef's hat c enrique eh kya may minus) and then minus 1 kami sa food and presentation 29/30 lintek lang talaga ung computation eh, 15/30! Argh!

Malas malas.

Nalulungkot ako. Gutom nanaman ako. Inaantok ako. Ewan. Natatawa nako.

I hope naiintindihan nyo ung sentiments ko. Naglalabas lang ako ng sama ng loob. Kaya eun. Blog lang ako ng blog. Para naman sumaya saya buhay ko. Haha.

Wait lang, may istorbo.

2005-10-29T12:50:00.000-07:00

I'm in CL1 right now. Break eh. Til 1pm. Darn! Magluluto pa kami. I am still not in the mood!
Yeah, you know why.

Ngayon mejo kalmante nako so I can explain what happened yesterday na, na sobrang kinainit ng ulo ko.

Here goes:

Eto start nyan actually eh, morning palang nabadtrip nako. Pano ba naman, cnabihan nnman akong malakas boses ko (close to being eskandalosa), eh hello? hindi naman! Normal voice ko nga toh eh. And kung galit ako iba rin tono ng boses ko. Chka kung napakalakas ng boses ko para ganon ung maging reaction nya eh dapat naglingunan na ung mga tao sakin sa 8th floor db? sabi nga ni Zano: "baka hindi pa lang sanay sayo un..kami kc sanay na.." So after nun, badtrip nako talaga. Iritang irita nako. Pano ba naman sa bawat galaw ko may mali ako. Diba badtrip un?

Anyway, 12:15pm nagmeet kami ni Zano sa caf kc punta kaming Makati Palace Hotel for pictorial. E kelangan ko pang umakyat sa 6th ulit cos my event dun and kelangan ko magsign sa attendance. Bumaba sya ng 12:45. Aakyat pa sana ako pero tinamad nako kaya umalis na kami. Pumunta muna kaming G4 to eat after nun pumunta na kaming Makati Palace.
On our way to Makati Palace (nasa cab kami) may pinabasa syang text sken (hindi paren kmi in good terms nito) eto ung sabi nung ngtxt: "Peter lasing na cla rox and anna. Balik k d2". O diba? Napakatibay. So lalo akong nabadtrip. Gets nyo naman cguro kung bakit db? Until makarating kami sa Hotel un inaatupag niya at pinoproblema nya. Talagang pinapabalik sya. So sabi ko, "go!" Aba, umalis nga. Alam niyo ba ung Reverse Psychology? Hindi? Pwes, alamin niyo.

Iniwan nga ako with Zano. Tama ba un? Pucha! Never in my life kong naexperience un. Mabuti pang hindi nalang niya ko cnamahan (and dun sya sumama sa mga un) kesa ganon. Ano un, pamukha? Malupit eh.

Hindi niyo naman cguro ako masisisi kung ganto reaction ko diba? Nagulat nga mga pipol na knwentuhan ko eh. Haha. Eh well, obvious naman kc sa mukha ko na galit ako so nagtanong cla kung bakit e di knwento ko lahat. Don't worry. 4 na tao lang may alam nun. Strike 1 sakin.

Nakakalungkot. Nakakainis.

Hindi ko alam kung hindi ako sanay sa nangyari o hindi na ko nasanay. Wala pa naman kc gumawa skin nun eh. Haha! Wala talaga. Sa dinami-daming beses na sumama loob ko kay Ernan dati, wala syang gnwang ganto ktindi. (i hate to compare pero ngyon ko lang nrealize un). Paulit ulit lng mga things na gnwa nya na sumama loob ko pero walang ganito. Hayy.

Pero Ernan's history. Sawa narin naman ako sa pagiging problemdao dun noh. E ngayon, problemado nanaman ako. Ganito cguro deserve ko? Nga ba? Wag naman noh. Sana hindi toh matulad sa past relationship ko na pinagod ako sa kakaintindi and kakaiyak. Napapagod din naman ako. Sana hindi rin toh matulad in a way na sangkatutak na chances na ung binigay kong paulit ulit pero wala pa ring nangyayring maganda. Walang pagbabago. Sana iba naman toh. Un ung naicp ko before eh. Iba toh. Ayan, iba nga. Darn. Pero cge, chance ulit hanggang sa mapagod at mapuno ako. Pag katapos nun. Wala na ulit. Sana wag umabot dun noh. Pagpahingahin niyo naman ako. Papasayahin niyo ng sandali tapos papagurin niyo ko ng matagal. Tama ba naman un? Babae ako noh. At hindi ako martyr and manhid.

Un lang.

2005-10-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

Total disaster! This day is a total disaster for me!

I should've known this day would turn out this way. (pucha! rhyme ba ung ngawa ko!?)
Malas. Jinx. Badtrip. B.S! Argh!

I hate this. I have mixed feeling and mixed emotions. Tama ba? Focker! Nakakainis. Ngayon ko lang sobrang na-feel un, ito..Kaya hindi ko alam ung exact term for this eh. Shet talaga! Taken for granted? Neglected? Binalewala? Hindi ako binigyan ng importance? Walang konsiderasyon sa mararamdaman and naramdaman KO? Ewan. Iba. First time. Darnit!

Ano toh, karma? Bakit?? May nagawa ba akong ganito dapat balik? Mukhang may interest pa.

Arruba Zano?? Pucha! Arruba tayo. Tas sa debut ni Abs, Temple tayo or Red Box. Haha. I should lighten up. Hot-tempered ako. Aminado ako. I should smile..though my heart is aching?smile even though it's breaking? Bwahaha! Bangag ampota!

Wish me well nalang.

2005-10-24T19:25:00.000-07:00

Ang ewan ng day na toh! Mashado akong hyper. Haha! Hyper ko magalit, mapikon and maexcite! :) O san ka pa?

Kaninang morning ang steady lang ung WORLITE class namen. Dapat lang, for once noh! 7am un til 8:30am kaya buti na lang evaluation lang about dun sa naging play namen. Fun naman eh.
Early dismissal pa kanina. So, pumunta kami sa SHRIM office. Naknampucha! Wala c Sir Ele. Kelangan ko ng ipa-note ung letter ko to change my major. Fock. Next next week na ung enlistment eh. Kelangan bago marelease ung flowchart ko napass ko na ung letter. Argh! Sana tomorrow nachempuhan ko na sya.

Ok din pala ung sub ni Miss Sale kanina for PHILIEN class. Ok lang. Ang sarap sabihan ng steady cos tumatawa sya. Haha. Ang cute ng topic. Poetry.

Tomorrow, excited nako! Pupunta kameng tipol eh! Yahoo! *darn* Sayang Apol won't be able to come. Complete na sana (w/o jesa). Ay, hindi rin cos c anjeli wala. Haha. Basta eun, c Katrina Grace Lozano nkakatawa. Tinawagan ko sa haus, pano ba naman hindi ako nirereplyan un pala walang load. Niloloko ko nga eh. Cheap. Haha. Joke! Kc naman ang ganda ganda ng fone eh. Pero ok lang. Love paren kita. :)

Basta zano tom ah? Tazzina tayo! Wahaha!

2005-10-23T16:05:00.000-07:00

Time for me to update! Sorry if I wasn't able to update for the past week. Im tooooooo busy! Darn. Midterms week kc eh. And our midterms was wayyyyy not the one I expected. Can you believe our midterms in Prinman was open notes!? Haha! Dapat lang noh. Cos 60 items fill in the blanks. Ung mga definition of terms nya. Duh!? Napakahirap. Kaya cguro pinaopen notes nya. Pero ang labo rin nung prof, wala daw dapat perfect. As if! Hindi naman kami ganon ka-abnormal para hindi maperfect un eh open notes na nga db!?

So anyways, enough of school. Puro na lang school eh. Last night, we (ej,andrea and i) went to greenbelt 3 and straight to gb1 sa expo cos may event ung k-lite. Andun hale,soapdish,sugarfree,ethan bsta mga bands. So eun, after namen sa expo we went to Mezze! Open bar. Pero ang sagwa kasi super dry lang and smirnoff ice lang pwede. So kaming dalawa ni Andrea nka4 bottles ata within 45 minutes. So what do you expect? Sabog ako! Leche! Nagalit pa tuloy sakin c Peter Don Tayag. Langya! Kasi usapan namin, 12:30 dapat nasa haus nko pero hindi naman un ung naging problem eh. Aside dun sa curfew usapan din namin, pag hinatid ako ni Ej dapat una ko before Andrea. Eh nkita nya pagbaba ko sa car ni Ej nasa harap ako nkaupo. Meaning wala na c Andrea. Galit na galit. E drunk ako, so hindi ko alam kung pano ko mgrereact. Mejo alam ko pa naman ung mga nangyayre eh. Hindi ko lang alam kung pano ko mgrereact. Natakot kaya ako! At ang masama pa dun..bnreakan ako! Naknampucha eh noh!? Dun ata mejo tumino isip ko. Nagwalkout ako. Tangina! Eh hindi ko alam mgiging reaction ko eh. Pero honestly, naisip ko de cge. Hahayaan ko sya. Nak ng jueteng naman kc. Nanliit ako. ano ba gnawa ko?? Ok lng ung reaction nya eh, ung nagalit,hinagis ung shirt nya sa street and stuff pero ung palabasin ako para lang breakan ako, eh naknamp! Tinanong pko kung payag ako. Arrgh! Walkoutan ko nga! Pag higa ko sa bed, naiyak ako. And then naicip ko, ganon lang gnwa ko (oo na, mali ako pero bkt gnun agad? e andali nman pla nya bumigay eh.) kung ano2 na cnbe nya. Binawi nya after 3 minutes. Hindi talaga ko makreact. Ewan ko! Kaya hindi ko nreplyan until kninang morning. Mejo mukhang hindi pa kami ok eh. Grounded ako. Darn!

Pero ok lang, eun. Wala akong mgawa ngyon. Gusto ko na magtuesday! Balik tipol nanaman ako! Intrams ng hs eh. Seniors daw kami kampi! Anlabo, sisterpals namen ung juniors pero sa Seniors daw kami dapat sbe ni batch leader. E copyng copy daw ng juniors ung line-up namen eh! Pati steps ng dance and pep since juniors kami til seniors. Derrr! Gusto ko un line-up namen nung juniors eh! Champion kami! (and last year ko un sumayaw eh) I love that line-up. Bwcet! Mga copycats! Sayang c Apol hndi mkakapunta. Hmm...

Yan, inatake nko ng katamaran, stop nko.

2005-10-13T22:15:00.000-07:00

Sabi ng mga tao minsan lng daw mging masaya ang isang tao. Mukha ngang totoo pero mejo mali kc LAGI akong masaya ngayon eh. (haha! oo na jes, ssbhn mo corny nnman ako!) Pero totoo nman eh. Ngiging corny na ata ako. Arrrrggghh.

Today, masaya! Peedow and i went sa G4 kanina to buy something. Ay grabe, nabundat ako sa kinain nmen sa hotshots. Messy. Nkakatawa. Basta masaya ako eh. Ok toh pero nkakatakot pag laging masaya. Pero hndi rin kc iniinis naman nya ko eh. Pano ba nman hilig tumingin sa mga chicks eh mukhang hndi alam na npkaselosa kong tao! Nkkainis. Praning tlga ako pag ganon eh. Swear! Ayoko pg gnon. Pumapantig tenga ko. Exagge na kung exxage pero ganon tlga ko.

Nabili ko na nga pala ung book na kelangan ko sa PERDEVT. Nyeta yan! Sa G4 lang pala matatagpuan. Dami ko pang gagawin. Midterms na next week eh. Knkabahan nko. Kelangan mataas grades ko! Kundi..alanganin nnman ang buhay ko sa finals. Ayaw ko na maulit ung nangyare sken sa filip13 ko noh. Although, maganda nman ung result eh ayko ng kabahan pa. Pasa kung pasa! Un lang un.

Eto, matutulog nko. Tinulugan nko ng peedow ko eh.

2005-10-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

This day would've been pure bliss if it wasn't for peedow's doubt. Hmmm.

I was sobrang badtrip cos I wasn't able to take the quiz in Bmath, I was in Edsa Shang kc eh with my mom and my cousin. We went to Me-an and Ernest(my debut planner) was also there. I missed them. :) I was so glad I saw them earlier. We ate lunch in Edsa Shang. I was so takaw. Haha. I also spread "the good news" and Ernest was like: "Ano?Seryoso?!Bakit!? Jinx nga cguro talaga pag ngi2ng escort sa debut boyfriend mo." And I was just smiling. Haha. Magulat daw ba? After luch we went to Mega and Podium cos I looking for the book we need for PERDEVT and lahat SOLD OUT!
Anyway, back to my Bmath quiz. Super dali lang daw cos multiple choice. Focker! I forgot na may quiz cos usually thursdays un ngpapaquiz eh. So pumasok lang ako Perdevt. Ok nren, hndi mashadong hassle. Andame lang nyang binigay na homeworks! Haha.

I was tampo kanina kay peedow. Sumama talga loob ko eh. Nkakainis nman kc tlga un. Hmph!
Pero ngyon, ok na. :) Kulit kulit eh. :) Pero as usual, tinulugan ako. E hinayaan ko na kc baka hndi pa un gumising on tym bukas eh iwanan ko pa! Ayaw ko nga. Kaya kahit tulugan ako ok lng. Wag lang hindi sya mgising on tym bukas. Errrrrr. Total tampo na ito! Mwahaha! *mean*

Meme nren ako. Early pko tom eh. Gunyt pipol. :)

2005-10-10T20:40:00.000-07:00

I am sooooo happy. :)

I really am. Errr. Bakit kaya?? Hmmm.. 50 hours and 35 mins na kame. (tama ba?)

Yang song ng KWARTO e mukhang obvious naman cguro kung para kanino yan db. Kaya hindi na kelangan banggitin ang name. Seryoso yang kanta. Sobrang exacto. Sobrang saktong sakto talaga. Ang galing nga eh. Ung naka-highlight na nakabold eh emphasis un. Haha. Naaliw ako sa song na un. Dati kc pag naririnig ko un, deadma lang. Hindi applicable eh. Pero ngayong moment na toh eh I lurrve that song. Buti na lang pag labas ko andun SIYA. (db peedow??) :) hmmmm.. I lurrrrve my peedow. :)

O sha, ako'y gagawa pa ng analysis sa Perdevt namen.

Byers. :) Basta I'm happy.

2005-10-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

Kwarto

by Sugarfree

Maglilinis ako ng aking kwarto
Na punong-puno ng galit at damit
Mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan
Nakaraang hindi na pwedeng pagpaliban..

Oohh ooh..

Mga liham ng nilihim kong pag-ibig
At litrato ng kahapong maligalig
Dahan-dahan kong inipon
Ngunit ngayo’y kailangan nang itapon..

Chorus
Di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon 
Kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon..

May jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok
Na inaalikabok na sa lungkot
May panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaan
Isang patak sa bawat beses na tayo’y nasaktan..

Repeat Chorus

Mula ngayon

Ala-ala ng lumuluhang kahapon 
Dahan-dahan ko na ring kinakahon 
Natagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligaya 
Lumabas ako ng kwarto’t naroon siya.. 

Magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto (4x) 
Magpapaalam na sayo (3x) 
Magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto

2005-10-09T08:05:00.000-07:00

After what like 10 years of not posting, I am alive! This is the night of the living dead. Yeah, jowk! :)

My dear Katrina grace lozano is making kulit na for me to update my blog and since malakas sken ung babaitang un eh de nguupdate nko ngyon. :) Mejo marami nren happenings sa life ko ngyon eh kya kelangan ko nren cguro mgupdate tlga. I miss my girlfriends! (zano and apol pati c abalos) bsta un. I have a new lovelyf. Kahapon lang officially (oct8,6:05pm). O db? May tym pa tlga dapat. Im happy, haha! Katext ko nga c Jm kahapon eh, tyming tlga ung bruhang un saken. Bsta un.

Ay and u know what? Grabe tlga c Ernan. Ask me nlang kung ano nnmang kbblaghan gnwa nun. Bwct eh. Pero steady lng. Knya-knyang lovelife na toh pero gets, ang BS eh. Anyway, im happy. Haha. Nbbaliw nnman ako. Bsta un, kilala nyo kng cno un. Db zano? :)
Dont be sad este...steady ka nga pla, pero bsta un..pag dumating un pota mglalasing tyo sa kasiyahan mo!!! :) love ka nman nmen eh. Kaw pa!

Bsta kitakits sa birthday ni ignacio ah? Ung "exchange gift" nten dont forget. Okidowx??

Im talking non sense. L post agen tom pag nahimasmasan na pagiicp ko. Wahehe. :)

2005-10-02T18:30:00.000-07:00

Last night was fun! Bwahaha! We went to Blue Onion in Eastwood because it's jovi's birthday celebration. So eun, ewan ko ba bakit ako bglang uminom. Well, actually alam ko and plano ko naman talaga uminom pero ung nangyre kagabi eh mejo kahiyahiya na ata kc andun ung mga relatives ni Jovi. Pero ok lang. Wala akong alam. Tignan nyo MULTIPLY ko mejo maraming pics pero parang ang konti. Wala na kasi ako sa tamang pagiisip nun eh. I mean, ang dami kong iniisip na mga bagay-bagay sa buhay ko. Ang weird ko kc eh. Ngayon mejo minmgraine ako pero enjoy paren kagabe! Andun cla Rai,Tin,Chatc,Bondz,Sha,Pipay and my SS bsta andun mga pipol except Chex and Mhe.

Mejo maaga akong tinamaan kgabe. Hindi na nga kme nkapag OJ's eh. Feel ko pa nman! Grarrr.
I had a shot of tequila,cosmo,screwdriver,kamikaze,vodka seven,a gulp of strong ice and a gulp of long island. o db? pinaghalohalo ko clang lahat. Ayan napala ko. E bkit ba? Feel ko eh! Maglalabas lang ng sama ng loob! Hindi nman toh lagi eh. Ngyon lang ulit. Kaya eun, arrrrrr!

I love my friends. Thanks sa paghatid sken knina. :)

Eun, Mom and i watched Dubai knina sa Shang. Ang panget ng story. Nkakainis. D ako nkuntento. Tas naiinis pko. Ung isang tao jan hndi ngrereply. Pasulpot sulpot parang kabote! Knina ngtext tas ngyon wala nnman. Grarrrrr. Bahala na nga!

2005-09-30T09:00:00.000-07:00

I am sad. Aside from La Salle losing to FEU i have other reasons pa.

Bwiset talaga. Ewan ko what's happening with me. I really dint expect na things will turn out this way. I dint even expect na I will cry this hard. Parang before naisip ko cguro malulungkot ako pero hindi lang un eh! And nawala na sa isip ko na pssible na mangyre toh. Am i stupid? I know Im being selfish. Aminado naman ako eh. And minsan hindi ko na un napapansin. Sorry. Ewan ko ba bakti ako ganto. Hindi ko masabi ung mga gsto kong sabihin. Hindi talaga ako makapag isip. Pressured na pressured na ko. Sa sobrang iwas ko na makasakit ng mga tao lalo ko pa ata silang nasasaktan without me knowing. Sana maging ok na mga bagay bagay. Nacoconfused ako lalo. Bakit ganon? Sabi ko before hindi na ko iiyak. Feeling ko nga natuyo na mga luha ko eh. I guess I was wrong. Umiiyak ako eh. Mommy saw me and asked why am i crying. I told her why and then i began to cry ulit. Then tumawag ako ulit kay apol and i cried. Ngayon, Atelie and Ivan called (talaga nman ung lovers na un oh! nagcalm down na nga ako napaiyak tuloy ulit ako!) so eto. Emote nnman. Ka-ym ko c Katrina grace lozano. At nageemote ulit ako. Ang lungkot ko. un lang masasabi ko.

Nakakatawa! Lagi kong cnsabi kay apol and zano na "Saturday lang katapat nyan!" and then here i go. Ako pala may kailangan ng Saturday na yan! Pucha! Bukas na un! Sampung weng-weng and margarita lang toh! At pag tinopak titira pa ng Colt45 at pati na rin lahat ng Shooters! Pucha talaga! I love my friends. I love mommy. Hay nako. Bakit ganto?? My ultimate question.

Tomorrow tuloy na tuloy ah! Kahit anong mangyare sken.

2005-09-28T19:45:00.000-07:00

First game ng Archers tom (finals) vs. FEU. Im excited! Im not sure though if i will be able to watch.

Sayang. Pero kung hindi TV will do, next game na lang. Haha. Kaya lang Monday un eh. Hmmm. Im super looking forward pa naman to watch it.

Btw,Zano cool ka lang..Forget the song. And Sis tawanan mo na lang yan. Bakit ba ganto noh? Para tayong mga ewan na tatlo. Saturday lang katapat nyan!!!

Emosyon

2005-09-24T21:05:00.000-07:00

"And all the perfect words they seen so wrong
she's gone..........

Alone with you, alone with me
what can I do, I cannot breathe
my heart is torn for all to see
alone with you, alone with me."

My current LSS. I dunno why. Basta I keep on singing it eh. :)

Sayang di natuloy ung lakad namen ni Apol today. Kasi umulan eh and shempre hassle un. So next week nalang. Shempre sana kasama na c Zano and mukhang makikita ko naren sa wakas ulit si Katrina Abalos. Si kate namimiss ko na. Buti na lang nag-tag sya! Nagtatampo nako eh. Eh mabilis pa naman ako magtampo noh. Tagal ko na kayong di nakakasama ni Abs. Lagi na lang kame nila Apol magkakasama noh. Sana nagpaparamdam kayo. Pati c Mimo miss ko na. Nagtatampo kaya un kasi hindi kame nakapunta nug birthday nya? Sorry talaga. Wala akong kasama nun eh. And for sure wala rin ako kakilala dun. I mean, kaclose. Pati c Joanne Ignacio miss ko na. At eto, c JM pa! Ano ba nangyyre sa mga tao ngayon? Miss ko na c JM. Sana ngpaparamdam sya. Buti pa c Archie di ako nakakalimutan i-message sa YM and itext(nung hndi pa nwwala fone ko). Si Jesa din miss ko na. Ang layo naman kc ng kinaroroonan mo eh. Kelangan pa magipon para makapunta jan. Padalhan mo nalang ako ng kaartehan for Xmas ha? Kahit bagS or basta lam mo na kung ano gusto ko. O db? Nagtatampo nko nitong lagay na toh. At wala pa kayong mga regalo sken nung debut ko! Kaya magregalo kayo sken sa Pasko noh!

Ano pa ba? Pag nabasa nyo toh mag-tag kayo ha!

2005-09-23T19:00:00.000-07:00

Nothin much to make kwento. Except for the fact that I am sick! I feel sooo bad I dint even attend my Philien and Joseriz class this afternoon. I went home na tas I slept.
Ayoko talaga ng sipon. Nakakairita. Ewan ko ba kung ako lang nkakaexperience nito. Pero pag may sipon ako sumasakit ulo ko, humahapdi mata ko and pati throat ko damay. O db, badtrip?

Grarrrr!

Pero tomorrow, punta ako kay apol. Tambay lang sa Starbux. Sana sumama c Zano. I miss going out. Zano! Punta na tayo! Mga 8pm. Cge na! :) Pleaseeee!!??

Chka wait, bakit nga pala wala ng font and font color tong nasa blog ko?? Ha!?

Ang dull tignan eh. Ganda pa naman ng layout ko. Haha!

Btw, I have a new fone na. Share lang. Kaya pipol u can text me na ulit. :)

2005-09-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

Life's a BITCH!

I am so not feeling lucky this week. It's been a JINX!

Sobrang badtrip ako.

BTW, I have a new number na. Haha. Wala lang. As most of you know, I lost my fone nung Monday eh. So there. I lost all my contacts kaya u better message me here or sa friendster your numbers ah. :)

Pero badtrip parin ako!

2005-09-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

ANIMO D-LS-U! ANIMO LA SALLE!

La Salle rocks! I am staring to heart Tang and Casio. They are soooo good. They like scored so much. Unlike Yeo. Yeah, I heart Yeo too but he dint play well. Tsssss.

Enjoy enjoy! :)

My feet is aching. Maybe because of my 3 inch stilleto. Grrrr.

Rain is demmmmnnn!

I am still feeling annoyed yet I am starting to forget it since La Salle won over Ateneo. BEAT ATENEO! ANIMO LA SALLE!

Yeah, I am starting to get weird again. Fun! :)

2005-09-11T22:05:00.000-07:00

I am so not in the mood!

2005-09-08T17:45:00.000-07:00

My classes resumed last tuesday (sept6). 5th term ko na! Haha!

My schedule was ok though nakakatamad na pumasok cos super long break. Ewan ko ba kay Ej kung bakit napakahaba ng break. Pero sakto lang din. For bonding reasons malamang. :)

My subjects were ok. Good thing I dint fail in any subject last term. The subjects were ok but not the prof! Not! Sobrang exagg! Lalo na ung prof namen sa PERDEVT. Swear! He can make our lives miserable. First day palang nung tuesday eh aba't bad shot na kame nila EJ, Andrea, Jean, Gan cos we came in late. Actually, we're not really late. Mukha lang kameng late bcos almost lahat nsa loob na. Sakto lang naman sa time ung dating namen eh. So eun, ano pa ba? Wala akong trip na prof ngayon except sa JOSERIZ. Si Sir Rolly. Ang fun! Haha! Hindi ko pa naman kilala lahat ng prof ko eh. Meron pang 3 subjs. Tomorrow ung isa then ung dalawa sa saturday pa. Kaya sana matripan ko na! :) Para naman may motivation na maabot ang GPA na inaasam ko! Mwahaha! :)

Ernan and I met up pala sa labas ng gate. Ayun, naghihirap na ang bansang Pilipinas. Un lang masasabi ko.

Sis gudluck pala sa atin. Alam mo na un. Sana sumaya na ng lubusan ang ating mga buhay!

Zano hindi pala tayo tuloy sa saturday. Sabi ni apol eh. Kayo nalang magset ako anytime pwede. :)

2005-09-03T15:20:00.000-07:00

Super boring! I am super bored! I have got nothing to do and I am irritated! Nwawala nanaman c ernantot. Hindi nanaman nagpaparamdam amp! Grrr!

I hate this.

2005-09-02T20:45:00.000-07:00

I'm back! I'm back! I'm back!

Hahah! It's already our term break and guess what?! Sa tuesday may pasok na ulit kame! Haha! Bwiset! Kaka-enroll ko lang kanina, akala ko pa naman kahit pano e may makikickback ako un pala abonado pa! Grrrrr! Hindi nako makakapagshopping nito.

Super boring pa dito sa haus ngayon. Gusto ko sana umalis kaya lang hindi pwede. As in hindi pwede kasi wala akong kasama and wala akong money. Bankrupt na ang bansang pilipinas! :( Mashadong nakakalungkot. Hindi narin ako makapagipon. Ewan ko nga ba kung bakit eh. Nalulungkot ako.

Kahapon, Ernan and I went sa Galle. Wala lang. Ikot-ikot. I bought mga kaartehan sa katawan stuffs. Actually karamihan eh earrings and tops sa Terranova. Tapos eto, we ate sa Chef d' Angelo. Ang takaw namen. :) Isang Great White Pizza and Sampler 2. Wala pa naman sa mood si Ernan kumain kasi nga may braces so parang naninibago pa so parang mejo karamihan eh ako ang kumain. Haha! Appetite! :)

Mejo mukhang tagalog na tagalog ata ako ngayon. Wala lang. Wala na tong kwenta. Haha!

2005-08-25T21:23:00.000-07:00

I miss blogging! I still have my finals on Saturday pero ok lang. 2 more to go. :)

Pray for me. :)

2005-08-11T12:45:00.000-07:00

Okay! I am back from my Bangkok-Brunei tour. Gawd was it fabulous! We had sooooo much fun!

Bangkok:
We arrived at Bangkok International Airport at around 1am of Saturday. It was super late pero we were still very much awake. Our hotel, Indra Regent Hotel was not super ok but it was ok. Gets? Basta un. Upon arriving punta agad kame sa room namen (share kame ni maristel)and then punta kame 7-11 with Jeffie and Miles. Ang weird nga eh. Kasi katapat lang ng hotel namen ung 7-11 pero bawal tumawid so nag-overpass pa kame. Ang cute! Haha! Then after 7-11 punta kame sa room nila Jeffie and Miles and had 1 shot and bumalik na kame ni maristel sa room namen cos we were experiencing stomach ache.
The next morning walang kwenta. Tour lang sa buddha and then Shoppy Shoppy na! T'was really fun. Super dami namen nabili ni maristel. Errr! Saming kwento pero L be bak nalang cos I'm just in a net cafe. :)

*to be continued.....

2005-08-02T12:20:00.000-07:00

I am not feeling well. I am still at home cos my class is still not until 4:20 pm so yeah, I am bored. I am doing my homework ala project for my Insocio class later. It is kinda easy though cos the answers are just a matter of being practical and stuff.

I miss Ernan. Yeah, I do. We just had our "heart to heart" talk last Sunday night and it went a-ok.I'm glad things are ok now. It is just a matter of being matured enough to understand things. Though there are some parts that I got uhmm..irritated well, he knows the reason the talk was still ok. Alam na nya ung reason kung bakit nbct ako and kung saang part un! Kainis nman tlga eh! Sila nlang kaya ako noh!? Darn!

Ay, I think I know the reason why I'm not feeling well since yesterday pa. Maybe because I am super excited na for Friday!! Hahaha! I really am super excited!! Mageempake na nga ako tom eh. *Joke* My dad is going to give me pocket money. Errr! I wish ung amount na hnhinge ko ung ibgay sken. :)

2005-08-01T21:23:00.000-07:00

I got this in Jesa's blog. Haha! Na-amaze ako. Kakatuwa. :)

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	delicious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	one of a kind

Quiz created with MemeGen!

2005-07-31T20:30:00.000-07:00

Oh my God! I took this test in Blogthings and guess what the RESULT is!?
I admit I admire my Philoma prof, Mr. Franco Altonaga although he is an Atheist. He really is knowledgeable to discuss various topics in class and still keep us interested.

Haha! Oh well. I am just bored. Really bored.

2005-07-30T17:20:00.000-07:00

Oooh. This day is just plain boring!

I've no Ptour2 class because my prof is with the batch going to Bohol earlier. So, it was a relief for me because I have time to rest.

My only class this day was Aesthet and good thing it didn't ruin my day because I got a 2 for my midterm grade. :) Way to go!

I am super excited for Friday. I will be on my way to Bangkok! Wuhoo! :) Excited Excited Me!

2005-07-28T00:45:00.000-07:00

A surprise party was held for my friend, MICH in MIG's (her bf) house in BF Pque. Super nkkatouch! As in mega major sa ka-sweetan! Eh, in fact ako unang umiyak kesa kay mich. Sumunod lng sha. Hehe. Ang sweet kasi sobra eh! Parang hndi ko ine-expect na c Mig ganon pla. As in pati parents nya sobrang involved and nagaasikaso nung food and everything. Hayyyy...o well. Eun, almost complete attendance naming lahat except for Cocoy. Noh na kya ngyre dun sa taong un? Hayy. Anyway, before kami mkarating sa BF shempre tambay muna kme ni Rox sa condo ni Maristel cos kinuha pa nya ung car nya. Grabe! C rox kc ung ngdrive eh, parang mgppkamatay! Nasermonan pa tuloy kme ni Ej pgdting kla Mig. Haha! Pero seryoso, kht mukhang cool lng ako dun sa car nun super ninerbyos dn ako!
Pagdating nmen dun, kwento kwento muna onti kc wla pa cla Mig and Mich then pagdting nla eun, kainan blues na. Tas balik kmeng sucat para kunin ung Pajero ni Rox and nung pblik na, c maristel na ngdrive nung mazda3 nya. Convoy nlang. Hmmm. Pagblik nmen dun grabe, wla na clang gngwa. So onting kwento kwento ulit then we decided to go home nren cos pnpauwi na c stel and masama na pkramdam ni mark.
Kay Ej and Andrea ako sumabay cos kmeng 3 lang ung pa-north eh. First off c Andrea and then last ako hinatid ni Ej. Grabe tlga ung friend kong un. La ko masabe. All around. Bestfriend,tatay,kuya,preacher,counselor namen lahat na! :)
We arrived here sa house around 11:10pm and tumambay pa kme onti sa car nya while eating ung McFlurry nmen and kwento kwento ulit. Haha! Ngyon pumasok nko sa house around 12:30am. Hehe. :)

2005-07-24T21:10:00.000-07:00

Whew! Haven't posted for about a week already. I missed blogging! :) Oh well. Nothing much happened in the past week. Uhmmm. Kwento moments nlang.
Last thursday:
Zano's doggy died! Awww. Sad. They missed judah badly.
Then nung Friday:
Gimik moments kame. At eto, Apol went home agad pagdating na pagdating namen sa Eastwood. So date lng kmeng dlwa ni Zano. O db, san ka pa? Pero it's ok nman kc hindi cya nagpaalam eh and her mom is angry na. Kya un. Pero that night was so badtrip! Ernan should have been there kaso nang-injan amp! Db Zano? I was like waiting for him kasi usapan magkkita kme sa dorm ni apol at 7pm kaso umalis na kme ng 8 eh wala paren sha. But I was still thinking na baka sa OJ's nlang sha sumunod. Then nagtext sken c MARTIN. He was looking for Ernan. And i was like, "uhhh?? ewan ko kng nsan sha!". Cos cnbhan pala ni Ernan c Martin na mgkita dn cla sa eastwood. So ngworry nko bgla kasi hndi nmen macontact c Ernan and hndi rin sha ngrereply sa txt nmen. Martin called him at home pero umalis daw! Dun nko sobrang nbdtrip and ngworry kc he was supposed to be with me, e pano kung may ngyre na pla sknya!? Garrrr! Anyways, while chilling in OJ's Cueshe performed dun sa labas and oh, kame na pla ni zano. Haha! Sobrang wla kmeng mgwa so kung ano2 na pnagsasabe nmen. And our theme song is PUSH! haha! Kidding asyd, eun. Zano and I ate muna Calamares and Sisig. Hati lng kme sa 1 rice. Then we ordered na Strong Ice (zano) and Weng-weng (me). Ang pait sobra nung weng2! I mean, hndi nman sha ganon dti eh. Pero steady lng din. While drinking and making kwento may isang guy na lumapit smen and asked kung may nkaupo daw dun sa seat na pinapatungan ko ng legs. DUH!? E may 2 pang vacant tables noh! Garrrrr! But zano and I just laughed. Haha! Weirdo eh. Pati ung nsa katabi nmeng table npangiti. Niway, eun katext ko paren c Martin nun and he was already in Eastwood with his girlfriend, Angel so pinuntahan nla ko sa OJ's. Eun, kwento kwento while waiting. Tas order order nren. Ung mga waiters dun sobrang after 10 years pa ung service! Buti pa ung manong gurad! May silbi! Haha! I was like tipsy na nun and namamanhid na ung buong katawan ko. Martin and his girlfriend pla left after 1 drink. So solo nnaman kme ni Zano. Nkktawa, ngkakatibuan na! Lolx. :) Sa sobrang manhid na ng katawan ko ngyaya nko umuwi buti nlang dmting agad c kuya kc c Zano ayaw mgpaiwan. Ngcab ako. And sobrang pnpigilan ko magthrow up! Swear! Pagkababa ko ng cab sa street nmen i threw up! Garrrr! Buti nlang wlang tao sa labas! Malamang kc umaga na un eh..So eun, Peter pan went outside at nkita akong parang timang sa labas at nkaupo. Haha!
Yesterday:
Early morning tinext ko c ernan cos nkpatay pren fone nya so todo worry nko. Ngtxt sha around 11am na. At badtrip pa! Parang cool na cool pa sha! Biruin mo, super worried ako tas ang rason lng nya kya hndi sha pumunta the night before e dhl late na sha nakauwi cos nanuod sha ng movie! O db?? Tas Ernan went here sa house. Sunduin nya dpat ako eh pero ngbbihis plng sha e pauwi nko. Aga ko kc ntapos sa quiz sa Ptour2 eh. 15 mins lng. Haha! I'm sure pasado ako! Fighting spirit eh noh??
Today:
Dapat aalis kme ni Zano. Kya lng ayun at bumili ng aso! Haha! :) Sayang! La pa nman pasok tom!!

2005-07-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

Its been like 3 days since my last post and Zano told me to post another entry..Lalang. Can't wait for this Friday's night out with you again! :) And of course Apol and Ernan (sana!). So eun, nothing new happened naman. Except for the fact na nagbago ung midterm grade ko sa insocio from 1(74) to 2(84), o db? San ka pa? And uhm..finally nakapagenlist nko! Deadlyn na kc ng enlistment tomorrow eh and kung hindi ako nkaabot eh malamang magmamanual nnman ang buhay ko! Ewan ko lng kung hindi pa talaga ko makaenlist kanina, 6:30 ako nasa AKIC noh and my class is not until 4:20 pa. Kaya buti nlang wala pang 15minutes ako ngenlist sa ITC and umuwi nko.
When I got home I watched Wicker Park sa DVD..the story was ok pero it ws kinda dragging eh..pero astig pren! Haha! I ate lunch with my mom and dad (which rarely happens) and I went to AKIC at around 3:30 and arrived just in time for my class. Wala ngang ginawa sa insocio eh. Puro kain lng ako ng siomai sa yosihan then..balik sa classroom tas uwian na! Apol called nga eh, ngloloko cgnal ng sun dto sa haus nmen. Sa room ko lng may signal and sa labas kainis! Bsta don't worry sis, L pray for you chka wala nman yan eh! Tsk. And thanks din sa pagtxt kay ernan. Nmiss ko un ah! Nsa counteran nnman. Hay nko. Tas eto pala, special mention c zano pano ba nman, tntawagan ko na sa celfone nya (to think na hndi sha sun ha!), aba..hndi pa smsagot. Haha! E ssbhin ko lng nman na instead na saturday and night out nmen eh friday nlang para sure "daw" c apol (sbe ni apol). Hehe.ü
Ayan, walang kwento sa buhay ko ngyon. Next tym nlang ulit...ü

2005-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

This day is just far from being great. Ok, I'll make kwento first about the past days..
Filip13 is sooooo walang kwenta! My midterm grade was 0. Haha! Philoma i got a 2! And kanina sa ptour2 i got a 1.5. Bad! That's not my goal. Garrrr. Ewan ko ba kung ano nangyre sakin eh. Bakit ganito. Tas c Zano ang labo kausap knina. Yan tuloy hndi kme natuloy sa eastwood! Pero ok lang din. Next Saturday na lang OK!? Sure na dapat yan!!
Kanina badtrip pa bigla akong lumungkot. Ernan and I broke up and i think this time seryoso na toh. I'm sad. Yet I don't regret it. I don't want to hurt him. I still love him pero not like before and I think it would be unfair to him kung magpakaplastic ako db? It has got nothing to do about the other guy. Really. Its not like magiging kame agad in a few days,weeks or months. Parang I want to enjoy my moment muna. I'll miss Ernan really. I've spent almost everyday of the past 2 years with him and nakakapanibago ngyon na he won't be there with me pag may lakad kme nila apol,zano..or ittext almost every minute to check up on me (though cnbe kong nkakasakal un)..i'll surely miss him. Pero I think this is for the better. Kung kami talaga, kami talaga. Hindi pa lng cguro ngyon ung time. Cguro we still have to experience other things pa..apart.:(
I hope if ever na marealize ko ung mga bagay bagay and it is still him na tlgang hinahanap ko, pwede pren sha. Kung hindi na, then I guess karma ito! :(
Basta kaya ko toh. Ayoko tlga shang masaktan. Kc pag mgksama kme weird nko eh. And npapancn nya na hindi ako ngumingiti and I think masakit un para sa kanya. Ayoko nun. Ayoko shang nsasaktan. I'll love him. I will always love him.....

2005-07-13T22:27:00.000-07:00

Wahaha! I am so lost. Waaaah! Nyeta! Dunno what to do. Niway, kwento nlang..My day wasn't really exciting. Total hassle and nkkainis! Pano ba nman, hnggang ngyon hndi paren ako nkkpagenlist takte ayko na magmanual noh! And ang grade ko sa Hazonfo eh nagniningning na 1.5! Hahaha! Hindi un ung ineexpect ko pero ok nren at least hind ako 0! At eto pa, hndi pren ako byad sa tour nmen for bangkok sa aug3-7. Deadlyn na ng payment sa friday eh! O db? Then c zano and tgal maglog-in ulit. Hahah koneshon!? Grarrrrr! Gsto ko umalis ulit sa friday! Apol, Zano! Tara! Cge na. Puhlease!? Can't wait!!!!

2005-07-10T23:37:00.000-07:00

I am currently planning to change my layout. But I don't have time to do so. Yuk feeling! I mean I don't have the time to look for a new skin and tell my dear Zano to do it for me...Again! Well, it's not that I don't have time. I just forget!
Hayyy. I'll make kwento nlang kht na wlang pumapasok sa utak ko. Labo. So eun, Ernan went here sa house earlier with matching white roses pa. O db? Ume-effort na sya ngyon. Then he went home after like 2 hours and came back around dinner time just to give me KFC hotshots. Improving na. Sana hindi lng ngyon toh. Kc last chance na toh eh. Parang after nito, ako nman. Puro nlang chance eh. Onting palpak nlang ngyon gudluck na. Hindi nman nko unfair ng lagay na toh db? Db? Hayyy. Ayko mgpahirap ng mga tao and ayko rin mkasakit. Ewan ko ba. Cguro blessing in disguise din ung pgenter "niya" sa life ko...sa life nmen. Llng. Naicp ko lng.
*sigghhhh*

Wala na tong kwenta. Matutulog nlang ako.

2005-07-09T22:04:00.000-07:00

Last night was super fun. Apple, Zano and I got the once in a lifetime chance to bond! As in girls lang! Bwahaha! It was super saya. Zano and I were the first one to get there (eastwood) so we ate dinner first in Jack's Loft. Super hungry ako pero I wasn't able to finish my food cos wala lang. Busog nako eh. Apple arrived right after Zano and I had our dinner. Nagikot-ikot muna kame before heading straight at OJ's. Haha! Inspired! Ang saya. Para akong ewan. Malamang c apol nalasing nnman....hahah!

Zano, Sis! Alis ulit tayo!!!! Hahaha! :)

2005-07-07T00:10:00.000-07:00

I am back! After what like 10 days I am back and blogging! Haha!
I was supposed to post another entry last night kaya lang friendster was down so tinamad nako.
Anyway...super gulo ng lovelyf ko ngyon. As in major gulo. Ewan ko ba. M so confused. :(
Bsta un, lam nyo na un. Ang labo talaga!
Sana things will go smoothly na asap. Hindi ko na kaya toh. Gulong gulo nako. And ayoko makasakit ng tao. Intentional, lalo na.

Zano, Apol we have....no...we NEED to go out na on friday!! Total unwind na ito!

So since I wasn't able to post any new entry..Kwento na ito! Haha!
Im sad..depressed..problematic..confused..pressured..arrrgh! Lahat na ata eh! Tignan nyo naman..Alas dose na gising pa ako.
Nwawala na poise ko sa buhay. Alam ko kung ano gusto ko..pero hindi ako cgurado..pero nga naman db..walang sure sa life? We have to take all the risks. Well, me. Ewan ko ba. Natatakot lang cguro ako. I wish Jes is here, malamang big help un saken. C apol nga sobrang laki na ng tulong sa amin ni Ernan eh. Sobrang thanks talaga Sis ah! Hay Jesss.... Hirap magkwento pag ganito. Haha! Mis ka na namen!!

Basta Zano, ung date naten tuloy kahit may sakit ako ngayon!! Ok lang toh! Mwahaha! :)

2005-06-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

Thanks to all who came to my debut! It was super great that you were all there. :)
Well, except for some. But still, I enjoyed it.
Thanks for the message jes! I ALMOST cried. Almost. Sobrang nagpipigil lang talaga ko. Haha!

My 18 candles were all there, so is my 18 roses. But my 18 treasures were not. Well, its still not bad since 1 lang naman ung wala. :) Kaya ok paren!

Sobrang I was nervous cos many of my guests were texting me that they are still on their way and it's traffic here and traffic there because of the rain and guess what, its almost 7:30 and there were only few guests! I am not supposed to enter yet until the tables were all full. We started almost 9pm na. I was super tensed outside waiting for my dad to introduce me ( that's the time I and my escort will enter). I was like thinking that there are still many vacant tables but I was wrong! Super full and my friends were all saying "go mara!" while I am walking my way to the stage. haha! :)

It was super fun that I wasn't able to eat!!! Garrrrrr! I wasn't able to taste my "handa"! Tsk, but it's worth it naman so it was ok. :)
I really enjoyed it. I'll post the pics when I have them already. I wasn't able to take pics from my fone cos I was really busy attending to the guests.

Thanks to all my LSGH friends: Gomez, Melo, Dago, Gerry, Ricky, Pat V.
my St. Paul friends: Mhe (and her bebe), Kriselle, Anjo, Me-an, Joanne, Jen, Leah, Mimo
my hs barkada: Apol, Zano, Abs, Anjeli (with johann)
my college group: Blue_bulls nlang! (super dame eh!) :)
Basta! Thanks to everyonewho came!! :)

2005-06-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

Im here! And I am so excited for Friday! :)

See You Guys! :)

Muwah!

2005-06-13T19:50:00.000-07:00

Okkkk. I have been too lazy and too busy to update my blog but now, I am back! :)
Woeeh! Tsk, busy busy busy! My debut preparation is driving me nuts! And it's also giving me a heart attack! I feel like I have been 10 years older than what my real age is. That bad, huh?!
So, earlier.....I finally had the day to relax. We(my mom,ninang and ernan) watched MR. & MRS SMITH in Shang and wow was it cool! Super astig and well, funny. Watch it! ;)

Ima go! Have things to do pa. :)

2005-06-08T20:10:00.000-07:00

Bebs is here sa house. Awww. Hahaha. One of the few moments na he's here. Hmmm.
Anyway, we went to SkinLine earlier, bodyscrub! Napaka-arte namen noh?? Pano ba naman kasi... the offer is so tempting. As in 50 percent off sa lahat ng services. O diba? San ka pa? So we grabbed the opportunity. Mwahaha! :)

Yun, yun lang nangyari. Napakaboring kasi ngayon eh.
Give me something to do!!!

2005-06-06T06:44:00.000-07:00

This has been a good day. Nothing unusual or exciting happened. It's just good. :)
I was freakin' 10 minutes late for my Hazonfo class this morning so I dint attend it! NO LATE STUDENTS ALLOWED! Sheesh! It's just TEN MINUTES for cryin out loud!! My first time to absent in my major. Haha!
After which, I already pressured my remaining 18 candles to attend the video shoot! Well, I succeeded! Bwahaha!

Nothin' much happened in Filip13 except for the thing that our prof just keeps calling my name to anwer this-and-that question! Philoma is uber DRAINING! We had our very first quiz there and man was it difficult! I just answered half of the items and the rest....... NAH!!!!

After my class, Gerry texted me that he's in AKIC so I met up with him and gave him his invitation to my debut. We like chot chatted for a while and then I left cos I was goin' to have my hair trimmed at Mae's salon.

Bebeb stayed here sa house for 2 hours!? Hehehe! Kewl! Mom's here. Hahaha! :)

I just LOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEE my bebeb BIGTIME!

2005-06-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

Weeeh! I fin'lly gave my pare (pat v.) and Dago their invitations for my debut. Too bad Gomez and Melo dint come.
Niway, I attended a Baptismal with my Mom earlier at St. Francis Church beside LSM then we ate at the reception in Max's in Starmall.;) Bebeb followed us there and then my Mom,Ninang,Taraj,Bebeb and I went to Shang afterwards. Had dessert at Figaro. Met up with Dago and then Pat.
Bebeb and I went separate ways with my Mom since we are goin' to watch A lot like Love.
Super Food trip kami ni Beb!:) Hehehe. *kilig*

2005-06-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

Zano! Thanks for uhhhh.."renovating" my blog!!! Yey!
Sorry, I just don't get it.
Anyhow, I have a very very very exhausting day! Mega tiring talaga!
I have my Saturday classes for Aesthet at 8:30 am- 11:30 am and then Ptour2 1-4 pm. Super boring and super walang kwenta! Buti sana kung tour na eh! Can't wait. Kaya lang our group won't be complete cos Bohol yung karamihan eh. Awwww. :(
So eun, after class we went straight to Chateau Verde for our cotillion practice. Grabe! Maristel drove her Mazda 3 and I was super nervous! Sabe ko nga sa kanya: "Stel, paabutin mo tayo sa debut ko ha!?" Hahaha!
Well, nakarating naman kami ng buhay. Lolx.
We practiced til 7 pm. Super lakas nga ng ulan by the time we finished so nakisabay kami ni Bebeb kay Ej.
So eun, bumaba kami sa greenhills and we ate before going home. Super hirap magcab! As in hassle!
So nakarating nako dito sa house mga before 10pm. Good thing Mom dint get mad! Wheeew!
O db, haba ng entry ko.
Sory zano hindi ako pede on Friday. Super busy ako ngayon for my debut eh. Sory! Promise alis tayo! Ibibigay ko pa nga ung invitation nyo diba??? Hehehe.

Miss you friends!! :)

Yey!!!!

2005-05-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

I have another blog! Yey!
Zano convinced me to make one in blogspot so here I am starting anew!
My xanga just keeps on getting into my nerves, it is freakin confusing! I swear! Or maybe I am not just patient enough for it. Grrrrrrr.